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i never realized how many emotions i can be filled with at once. i am anxious to go back to orlando and see how my classes are going to be this semester and what new people i will meet. but i am stressed that i wont get a job and will have no money. i am sad that after four months of being reacquainted with my family i will have to leave them again. i am relieved that after working all summer i am done but at the same time im going to miss it there for what it was. although i need to get away from that. i am upset and disappointed because i thought things would end up different this time with someone. and again i was wrong. and at the same time of getting hurt i hurt other people. and for that, i am sorry. but whatever happend this summer somewhat made me stronger and mature in a way. i did not have much fun this summer or accomplish anything i wanted to. i did not buy any cool things or go on vacation like most. i pretty much just learned a lot about myself and watched the time go by. although i am scared about what i really want to do after college, i dont have to do anything i dont want to. my degree can let me do a variety of things. i also learned that i attract people who only end up hurting me which is why my trust doesnt exist. i might say i trust you because i really want to but my heart wont let it happen. the last thing i learned is that however embarassing or annoying my family can be at times they are the only people that will always be there for me and i shouldnt take advantage of that.
life is too short to worry about things that wont matter later on or to worry about people that dont or wont worry about you. surround yourself with good people. people that you thought you know may not be who you know anymore. people that you want to get to know may not want the same thing. things take time. thinking negative all the time just makes the world unbearable to live in. maybe summer has just made me realize life has more to offer.
goodnight.
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[28 Mar 2005|08:21pm] |
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Well, Spring Break is over and its time to go back to school..believe it or not it wasn't that bad today..math was pretty easy, sat on the bleachers in PE, colored in Anatomy, and passed out flyers during Newspaper.
When I came home I had a big headache and walked right to my room and collapsed on my bed with my backpack still on, keys in one hand, and my legs hanging off the bottom of the bed.
Spring Break was pretty good..could have been better though...didn't do anything TOO exciting..went to the beach a couple times..slept over Vanessa's a couple times and even went to the mall..although i didnt buy a thing..maybe because im a loser without a job and without money...o well.
I think I should start going to the gym not only to work out but to take out all my anger because I have a lot of it..I hate coming home from school knowing i'll probably sleep the rest of the day..I need something better to do with my time. Notice I only update about the negative because whem im content, im too lazy to update.
well bye for now..im getting lazy
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[11 Feb 2005|01:26pm] |
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Yea so its finally friday but then i realized that i do more in school then i do at home so i kinda dont really mind going to school sometimes as long as i dont have any tests or anything like that...
Lets see....its too cold to go to the beach this weekend or basically do anything that involves the outside.
I think i am gunna hang out with Stephany tonight but i dont know what we are going to do yet..if you have any suggestions then let me know...
Valentines day is on monday and i will be all alone.. last year i had an amazing valentines day <3...but shit happens.. it is only a stupid day anyways..there is always next year...my parents want me to go to dinner with them but i rather sit home and sulk.
oh ya today im getting my nails done and think im gunna get something like a heart on them and all girly, even though i think v-day is the stupidest day of the year!
I think there is a show Sat night but i dunno if im gunna go or not..
This week i bought the notebook on tuesday instead of going to school!..thats my favorite movie in the whole world!!
I need a job!! if you have any suggestions let me know!!!
wow im really bored and sick of all the bullshit and that is why i just dont care about anything anymore..shit happens...im not gunna waste my life being pissed off all the time. Im not taking anyones shit anymore so if you have a problem with me or any of my friends go fucking cry to your mom because noone gives a fuck. :)
Hate is baggage. Life's too short to be pissed off all the time. It's just not worth it. It's always good to end with a quote. Someone else has already said it best. So if you can't top it, steal from them and go out strong. So I picked a guy I thought you'd like. 'We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory will swell when again touched, as surely they will be, by the better angels of our nature.' (American History X-great movie!)
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Im really getting sick of this..
Actually i'm really getting sick of everything.
The days drag by with no excitement in my life..its as if the days repeat over and over. I wake up, go to school, come home and sleep, walk amiously around my house, go online or do homework and then go to sleep with the same gloom look on my face.
Fuck my life..
Everyday i think about the way i felt about everything a year ago...what i was doing, who i was hanging out with...then i realize how much things change..i mean yea i guess things change no matter what and some things happen for the better..but there are a couple of things that i wish would stay the same forever.
Why do people have to change? thats something i will never understand...theres nothing i can do that will make things better..theres nothing i can say or do...thats the worst feeling in the world...everytime i think about it my body tightens up and feels like i am sufficating.
Why are people so stupid ?
I hate when people play with my emotions and think that its ok..and im the stupid one who keeps taking it..i just want things to be how they used to and they will never be..
I want to move far away and start over
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| hey little mama... |
[16 Dec 2004|06:57pm] |
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so todays school day was pointless as usual..marshall is still not back yet so we basically did busy work...in math we learned some confusing stuff..ehhh..in newspaper me and hannah ruled the school like always and snuck into 2nd lunch and stood there acting cool drinking vanilla cokes..that was awesome...4th hour was a blur and that was basically my school day..then i went with vanessa to piper high for a stupid meeting..wow that was boring...
I cant wait for Winter Break! It will probably get boring after a while but o well its better than going to school.
Ouch my head hurts!
Don't know what this weekend will bring, hopefully something good!
Time to go lay down so peace nugglet...
<3 carly
p.s the for the taking show is on Dec. 22 and 28th..go see it!
@ culture room and club ovation
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| hannukah!! |
[07 Dec 2004|07:55pm] |
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so tonite was hannukah and i didnt get anything great..i got a brown skirt from abercrombie and a tan sweater from abercrombie..too bad the sweater itches so bad that i cant keep it..o well im gunna return it and get the green sweater i wanted...so heres what the week brings for me..tomorrow im getting my hair cut..comment if you have any awesome ideas on how to get it cut...and i mean awesome...and then hannukah again..thursday candy is taking me out after school for my birthday...and then hannukah..friday hopefully i will go with people to the tradewinds light show cuz i really want to go..let me know if you wanna go too..and then hannukah...saturday is my birthday..im not doing anything special i dont think..in the morning im going to hollister to get jeans that i wanted cuz i told my mom i wanted to wear them on my birthday and she doesnt want to get the wrong size so i have to try them on and all that good stuff...then i dunno cuz everyone decided that they will play poker again just like on demmas birthday..hopefully i will find something fun to do..got any ideas? then at night i get a hannukah gift..(i get my birthday gifts in the morning)..then i dont know what im doing at night..my birthday is a mystery this year, i guess...i have a feeling its gunna be sucky though..any ways vanessa got me 2 aeropastle shirts that are cute..(thanks again)..o ya and my grandma gave me 50 dollars and my aunt sent me these weird looking earings...o well it happens lol..i havent updated in soo long..no one reads anyways so it doesnt really matter...people are being so gay this week..i hope they dont continue to act like that cuz its getting really annoying..ok well im gunna go for now
<3 carly
COMMENT!!
o ya next post im gunna put me and vanessas abercrombie pic!
im too lazy!!
im so happy live journal made color! this is my fav!!
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[19 Sep 2004|06:44pm] |
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hello everyone, its been a while. I dont really feel like typing what happend in the past month so ill just start from fri..hmm..fri night i babysit till like 1 o'clock...was a lil tired, but hey i made some money..sat morning bright and early Erica came and picked me up and we went to the mall to find her sister an outfit...enough said..lets just say we were back and forth to the mall like 10 million times...lol no just twice...but it felt like 10 million times..o well..then we started getting ready for the party which took forever and then we drove all the way to mc donalds which was like in china...after eating we picked up ericas center pieces for the table and headed over to brus room...ran back to ericas to change and we made it back 5 min before the party started..we couldnt have erica late to her own party lol..yea so what a hectic day...the party was awesome and we had a lil fun but after we went back to ericas and chilled with a bunch of people and then i finally fell asleep around 2..in the morning we ate dunkin donuts and in the afternoon, me, erica, kait, and vanessa headed over to town center for some shopping (and returning). that was fun i guess...something to do...now im sitting here trying to do some homework and dreading going to school tomorrow..whatever..shit happens...
peace up, a town down!
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| Does it ever end? |
[15 Aug 2004|10:23am] |
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This was the worst fucking summer in my whole entire life. There would be no way that it could have gotten worse. But whatever, shit happens,and you can't do anything about it. Hopefully things will get better when school starts. Doubt it.
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[05 Aug 2004|04:21pm] |
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It's all down hill from here, I've hit rock bottom.
-11 more days until school
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| its all down hill from here... |
[19 Jul 2004|08:57pm] |
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Okay lets see..this summer officialy sucks! Not one day have I had a good time.. there is always sumthing that ruins my day. Lets just say i sit home all day and do nothing. Its pretty sad when I have a scheduled tv show to watch all day long. I have never watched so much tv in my life! However this summer I have realized that some people talk so much about their friends or just people in their life. If you look farther out there you will realize that there isnt that much better then the friends you have. Every group of friends is all the same.
Normally there is a a couple bitchy girls, one shy girl or guy, and the rest are assholes with a couple of awesome people in between. Unfortunately I havent met that many awesome people lately. Even if you dont believe me its the truth that girls today are so selfish, ill even admit it about myself. I can be selfsih. They never take time to acknowlodge their true friends. Now if you say thats not you then your definately lieing.
Whatever happend to the lets hang out all together or did we suddenly forget how things used to be? People have been making life so much harder then it needs to be. When your upset, all you need is a couple of close friends to cheer you up because they supposively know everything about you. Lately all ive found was people who know how to make themselves better in a way that hurts people, but they don't care as long as it cool for them. Something that bothers me the most is PEOPLE TRYING TO BE SOMETHING THEIR NOT!
Get the fuck over you self.
I want friends who are willing to be there for me in times of need not people who want to hang out when they are bored.
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[01 Jul 2004|08:37pm] |
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so yesterday i was driving mike to get his haircut on University (near Dennys) and i was on my way home. I was sitting there at the light ready to me a left hand turn onto University. I hate making left hand turns without an arrow because then u have to wait until all the cars go by. But i turned out lucky when i noticed that when the light turned there was two green lights plus a green arrow. At that point i began to make my turn when some lady ran the red light and hit my back fender on the drivers side. My car spun around in a circle and it finally stopped. The ladies car was crush and her windshield was shattered. I ended up going in the ambulance to the hospital where i was given medicine and took Xrays. They found nothing but told me to go to my doctor. I cant move my neck being that it is as stiff as a board and my back is spazzing with pain. I am going to go to another doctor in a couple days that specializes with backs and stuff. All i have to help me is muscle relaxers which doesnt do anything except make me sleepy. Just a lesson for people to learn..."It's better to get somewhere later than not get there at all", which is what happend to the lady (even though she has no injuries). Well im gunna go lay down again..ttyl.
Peace.
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Hey Carly!
I dont think this is an entry for everybody,
its only directed to
Carly,
my one and only. I will now continue to you, Carly.
U have been pretty upset the last couple of days, so im here for you.
You do have a lot more friends than you think, and quite a few of them care alot
about you, especially me. Baby, im always here for you and i love you so much!
its been so long an im so happy and this is the best relationship ive ever had.
You really are my baby! I hope we have alot more time together ahead of us.
Cheer up and enjoy life, its your only one. I love you baby.
Mike
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[27 Apr 2004|09:11pm] |
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wow its been soo long since the last time i updated..probably about 7 months...so much has happend. Well, i have been going out with mike for 7 months now (and a couple days lol)...i got my lisense in december....school sucks just like always...nothing new about that except the same old drama...
There are soo many people that annoy me..u can probably indentify yourself on this list.
1. sellouts
2. non stop talk about the same boys
3. stupid drama about nothing
4. stupid people that think they are cool
5. stupid sluts
6. stupid fights
7. stupid ugly people that think they are gorgeous
hmm cant think of anymore at the moment...but i kno there are more...
life has been so stressful....i have to worry so much about school...ever since this year, it feels as if the days go by so fast...thats good i guess for school, but after school and on the weekends time flies by...there is nothing to do in coral springs...there are the same old people in this stupid city who all do the same thing....NOTHING! It gets annoying after a while. Mike is no longer is the band anymore..hmm...have u ever noticed how people change so much just to fit in or please someone? thats another thing that bothers me...noone can be themselves whether its for a guy or just to be friends with someone....there is always a leader in every group that someone follows which prevents people from thinking on their own. Nobody reads this journal anyways cuz i have no friends but i decided to express my feelings..does anyone feel the same?
Confused,
--Carly
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[10 Sep 2003|11:27am] |
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hey everyone....today is soo boring and i dont think i did good on my tests...ahhhh...i wanna go out this weekend!! i thought u all would enjoy this....
Fight Club!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
brought to you by Quizilla
theres gunna be sum fight club going on lol
well im gunna go..ttyl
peAce
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[08 Sep 2003|10:51am] |
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Wow its been so long since i updated..but im back...did u miss me? i bet u did...newayz school isn't so hott. I have way too much homework and not enough time. Between practices 2 days a week and tests to study for i am soo stressed...ya soo on friday i went to the movies with erica, eddie, and brit. We saw Dickie Roberts...insane in the membrane...haha yaaa then we did drivebys lol fun fun and then we stopped at mc donalds and saw a strange man run by with what we thought was a gun and then brit and eddie went to baskin robbins and me and erica locked them out of the car and blasted the music...haha and dont forget blockbusters lol..so then me and erica and eddie went to ericas and watched identity and it was weird...finally at like 1 eddie went home and me and erica basically went to sleep after we got the moth out of the house..sat i did nuthing..at night i went to the football game and it was boring..i guess..later that night i got in trouble for using the phone...hmm ya..soo then on sunday i went with my parents and my grandma to the palace to see seabiscuit and i fell asleep during it and then we went to pfchangs and it was yummy! after that i went home and was bored out of my mind for the rest of the night...today im gunna do my homework quickly so i can get it over with..i really need Eddie to help me with geometry but we will c what happens...newyaz i am really bored and in order to go out this weekend i have to get good grades on my tests..ahhh someone help me! So thats pretty much it...ttyl
Luv,
Carly
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hey i haven't felt like updating in a while..just not in the mood i guess....my life is so boring..same shit, different day..although i stayed at ericas from thurs till sun...on thurs nite i went with erica,nicole,eddie,stephany,aaron and paul to coldstone and that was fun..thanks eddie for the ride lol...then on fri me and erica were suprised by a 5 min visit from vin and jared..after ericas mom took us to sports authority, bells, BK(Burger King) and widenskys..i didnt get nehting special..then later that night me and erica went with nicole and eddie...then that night all the drama started..wut an annoying nite...on sat me and erica went to town center with her nana and i got some pants and saw a hottt abercrombie model..then we basically did nuthing that nite except get chased around her house by her dad and make funny away messages...on sun we went to the student council meeting and then chilled at her house the WHOLE day! ..around 9:00 vin and jared stopped by and then at like 9:45 they came back and took me to wendys and then drove me home..mon i spent the whole day cleaning my room...kinda boring..today i went with erica at 7 in the morning babysitting where i sat on the couch the whole day until we discovered the barbie jeep and motorcycyle..then me and erica drag raced and ofcourse i won! lol after we went to the mall for like 10 mins and then to linen and things and BK..me and erica then went back to my house where we ate dinner and watched the OC..wut a good show..i dont ko wut im doing tomorrow...if u have ne suggestions leave me a comment...have a nice day...ttyl
<3 carly
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hello. Have't updated in a while. Sat i went to the movies with Erica and her lovely parents. We saw American Wedding at the Palace. Then after we ate PF changs and it was yummy. Then i slept over her house. Sunday afternoon me and erica went to Antonios and chilled with Chris all day. It was fun, i guess. Monday i did nuthing except walk around my house. Later that nite Vinny and Jared came by and chilled for a while...weird kids lol newayz today i did absolutely nuthing and i had the worse cramps :(..got my ql work done though so i am happy about that. Ya well tomorrow looks like a nice little wednesday..maybe head over to sawgrass and get some clothes and shoes and then maybe go to Ericas..but i dunno i ill have enough TIME! lol and i dunno what im doing the rest of the week! ttyl!
peAce
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hello everyone! i am still in chicago. Yesterday i went to my uncles warehouse and got sum cool glasses and a pair of sunglasses. Then i went to a chinese restaurant..the food was yummy! After we went shopping for lounge chairs and then we chilled for a while and went on a walk down michigan ave. at 5 we went to the park where u watched an old movie! It was funny! But it was freezing! AHHH...we got back at 11 andi went right to sleep! At the movie there wee sailors walking around and they were cute! That oughta hook me a sailor! lol well newayz today i am gunna see my cousin again today! She is soo cute! and then we are walking around the city and stuff. Sounds fun! i think im leaving to come home tomorrow so we will see wut happens. i miss my house and my bed and my doggy! ok well im gunna go ttyl. Miss u all!
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